Thebrettman, 47

I'm not sure if I should be looking for love right now. I got myself into alot of trouble 5yrs ago with dui's and I've come a long way but still haven't reached the surface of the hole I dug myself into. I guess I should've dug some steps on my way to the bottom, huh? But I am making good progress now. I can see the surface and it's getting easier and easier to get there the closer I get. I know now that I'm not in control. God is. The only thing I control is my thoughts and my actions mirror those thoughts. My goal for myself is to be the real deal. So many people have I looked up to in my life only to be crushed when I see them at the bottom in their shame. And so many people are watching me, wondering if I'm serious or if they will be disappointed later. For the rest of my life, I want to be the one person on earth that isn't full of it! Just the thought of that gives my life purpose and the strength to overcome anything that dares to stop me!
As for what I am looking for? They need to know that they are NOT in control, God is. I like someone modest with good taste and classy, old fashioned, and all natural. I'm a very touchy feely type so I need someone who likes lots of attention, cuddling, caressing... and a really nice butt is a must, lol! Is that you?