I'm here,again- going to give this site a real chance. I'm out of my shell of self pity LOL- hope to find a few new friends and enjoy all that this world has too offer
I'm recently diagnosed with this- and trying to learn to accept myself, so that maybe someone else would be able to accept me in the future. I'm a divorced mother of three- and never thought in a millions years that I would be here- although maybe deep down inside I had some doubts. I was recently chatting with someone from my past,I truly cared deeply for him- we planning so many things and I wanted to be safe, so I had myself tested to be sure I was ok- well you know the answer I got - not the one I had hoped for. Within only a couple hours of finding out this , I had to call him and tell him - we had talked in depth of the possibilities of something like this, and he reassured me that no matter what the outcome- he was staying with me. That was two days ago, I haven't heard anything from him- my heart is broken and I'm not sure where I belong now.
What I would like to get from this site, are some contacts with others that have this. Some understanding and some acceptance. When I didn't know - I never treated people that I knew to have anything like this differently I know people with aids -some are friends or a friends family member- it seems we are more understanding to that, when we should all be equally understanding to any disease. We are human beings and we deserve just as much respect as the next person.
I've gone so far as to go to my church, just this morning - breaking down in front of my Pastor- I know he's heard just about everything, but not from me before. I just need some direction in this. I want to move on with my life- I don't want to sit here in self pity- and waste anymore of what little time I have left in this world. Life is to precious to be sitting here wasting it- and worrying about what the rest of the world thinks of us.
