Garriaga1636, 42

I recently found out that have genital herpes when I had an outbreak. That's the weight on my chest and I'm devastated as it was transferred to me by someone I thought I was in a monogamous relationship with for several years. So now I'm a single father that's alone and am afraid that wont ever change due to me having an STD. More than anything I'm looking for acceptance and companionship and hopefully one day that will turn into something more. I just have no clue how to go about my dating life or even flirting because I've always been the type of person that could be taken at face value and I have too big of a heart to have someone fall for me and when the time came having to tell them that I have herpes. I don't want to be defined by this disease but I don't want to feel like I'm hiding it or lying about it to someone I may fall in love with or that trusts me and I'm just not that into random flings. Life is too short to be alone and its too precious to waste on people that don't care about you or are just out for a meaningless occasion I understand and know as well as anyone that were only human and have certain needs but for me that's not what I will find happiness in and I know it. Not every relationship will turn out to be the one and I know that so no attachment issues here but, I really would like to find the one and companionship and friends along the way. I don't know what else to do and Its breaking my heart feeling like this one bad thing about me is dooming me to loneliness forever. so I found this site and as nervous as I am about it, id like to be able to move forward with life knowing im not alone.