Dee00, 42

Alone and Starting Over I am a newly single white female. I live in the Louisiana area. I am a very independent person. I am very blunt and honest some people like it and others hate it. I am a tad ocd and my anxiety level is out this world. So in other words I worry way too much and stress myself out over anything and everything I possible can. I would like to eventually settle down when finding the right person. I know I am a little limited as to someone giving me a chance for who I am not what I have. I have had this for around two years but am still having a hard time with it especially since im alone now. I have had guys want to talk to me and have just pushed them away afraid of being hurt. I have told a few guys before and only for them to go the opposite direction. This is not been easy to deal with and I dont think it will get any easier as time goes on. I dont get out much and all my friends are married and have kids. Within the last couple months I had found out I was pregnant then right before Christmas went to the emergency room to find out I had a miscarrage. Everyone around me is pregnant it makes me a little sad at times. I know it will take time but my boyfriend or now ex who I have been on and off with for 4 years just broke up with me. He will probably realize he made a mistake just like he always does and come back but im done this time. Enough is enough I know I do deserve better and im not going to hang on anymore just b/c we both have this. So whatever im starting to think maybe im better off alone so I wont get hurt anymore. If you have questions just ask but bare w/ me this is all new and not at all like a myspace, facebook or anything like that.