1522rock, 44

to find a friend, a significant other, date, relationship I am an anesthesia technician, at Jefferson Hospital. I have brown/blonde hair, I try to stay in shape. I am looking for a friend, a compainion, a relationship. People tell me that I am attractive, but I am insecure about my looks because of bad/abusive relationships in the past. Also the whole herpes thing has kept me from meeting/dating people for more then a couple days. So after many therapy sessions I was advised to try out these sights in hopes of meeting someone. I live alone in a aptment in brentwood and would like to share something with someone in my area. I work a lot which makes hard also, I take call almost every other weekend and during the week as well. This is so strange to me, describing myself... to who? I am looking for someone close to my age, all of my two relationships since I was seventeen where much older then me, which I think made it difficult to get along. I am hoping to meet someone not perfect but, attractive to my and vice versa. I am hoping to meet someone that is willing to be interested in the things I enjoy not only what they enjoy. I love nature and being outside, working in my garden, going to movies even more watching them at home snuggled on the couch. I would like to have someone that is not afraid to be intimate. I have spent most of my life trying to make others happy while never recieving the same satisfaction. I am not really sure waht eles to say I already feel like I am being some kind of demanding selfish person. but my last relationship last five years, my fault for staying. Within those five years, he never gave me a birthday present, no card no flowers, no outing, and accused me of being selfish for being hurt. I would also like to, meet someone who doesn't have childre, not that I don't like them or ever want to have one, just that both of my relatioships have been with people with children. I come to realize that I would never be a high priority when children, there mother,s, and ex-wives are envolved.