Completely Lost On a Mental level (HURT)

[youngnico]

I'm completely lost on a mental level. I've been walking around acting as if I'm okay when deep down I'm really not. Smh. I was recently (Dec) diagnosed with Hsv-2 (gential). When I found out I was embarrassed, upset, devastated, angry & hurt. I was always one to get checked out on a regular and there i was thinking that everything was okay with me health wise. One day i went to the doc for one thing (annual) and they asked if i wanted to take a blood culture test, so im like sure why not. When the doctor gave me the news Everything literally hit me all at once. Nothing horrifying happen to me to get me in the situation nor was I the type to just sleep around with any and everyone. I simply just trusted the WRONG person. Im a 27 yr old Lesbian female and I feel like I'll never have a S-- life again let alone "normal" relationship. *sigh* I have my days where I'm completely angry and want to spaz out then other days I'm like okay there's nothing I can do about this situation but stay as stress free as possible, this doesn't make me who I am it's just a part of my life now. I don't want to be like the person who gave it to me and didn't give me an option ahead of time but how do u tell someone you have hsv-2 without them not wanting to deal with you on a certain level anymore? #lostinmythoughts #justventing

[screenrider1]

`Hey kiddo, firstly, there are thousands of worse things that can happen to us, but there's no denying we're pretty shocked at first. We trusted someone, which isn't inherently a bad thing, but it happens to the best of us.

I myself contracted HV2 when I was your age, and from a girl I was very in love with at the time. She actually informed me of her HV2 while in tears, just prior to our first sex, but not being familiar with the virus (about which there was no internet/mass communication at the time), I dismissed it as being anything as stigmatizing as it's become, or was prior to my contracting it.

I did inform a good friend/casual one-time lover who didn't seem to mind either, and then the same with my current spouse of 31 years.

It wasn't a huge deal, as both my wife and I had a few outbreaks for the following 5 to 7 years, but have both been outbreak free for nearly 25 years since.
The problem arose when my wife's SSRI antidepressants had essentially rendered her asexual over the past 20+ years, and why I was given permission to find a *friend*, as long as I was -------- about it, as I'd discovered she'd had a decades-long affair, much of it after our marriage, and kids.
That was fine and dandy, until I recently found this great partner with a stage 4 cancer husband, but after weeks on the phone, and planning a rendezvous, she's emailed me about my being STD free, so I was honest, and as kind/understanding as she was, it ended with one sad, and final phone call.

So this is the first time in decades HV2 had affected my life, and exactly why all of us are here.
That's the good news!!!
This is the first site I've come across, but there are many more HV sites online, and exactly why your life doesn't have to change as drastically as you're currently thinking. I actually found this site from Google, but FetLife is another site with many HV groups, and members all across the country, so you will have meaningful S-- and relationships the rest of your life, you'll be happy, and do everything everyone else does, with the exception that you'll have to consider safer sex, anti-viral medications, or simply connect with one of millions of HV friends out there!

Cheer up! You're not at all alone!!!