Feeling lost

[ange843]

I am new to this site and new to hsv. I am well know with friends and family for being positive even in the worst situations. I am that person that people go to for advice and to help pull them out of their funks... My mind has been in so many places since I found out and I feel like I have nobody to talk to. I have people that will listen but none that understand what I am going through. I feel like I am fighting this alone. I find it harder everyday to maintain my postive outlook on this. The negative thoughts are winning. I feel gross and lonely. Its like Im in the middle of a forrest at night and every step I take takes me deeper into the woods. I am scared of a lot of things but am also angry that I feel so lost... I do meditate. I just dont know what else to do to find my way out... any suggestions would be greatly appreciated...

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`Hey I read and replied to another of your blogs. I am currently going through the same thing and its finally nice to know m not alone. I'm currently taking the tablets u take everyday (which are working) and I'm just trying to chill. I'm going through a tough time with the split up of me and my ex...so it's hard to stay relaxed but I try and keep positive. I guess we have to try and member the positives of this...we can't die from it, it will not disable us and its not the end of the world.... I'm saying this like I'm confident about it lol I'm no at all but if I can make u feel better and myself then that's good. the hardest part is over coming the bad perception of herpes. If people were more educated on it then there would be less of an issue. I have read a lot about herpes and its not as bad as the media and people think. I'ma be using this site to cheer up and feel less alone. I hope it does the same for u and I'm ere if u ever wanna talk... Xxx

[jenny879]

`Just so both of you know I also just got diagnosed and so many things have been going through my head. Also that feeling that no one will ever want to be with me or that i'll never be able to have a baby.Also to how can I tell my family I have this when i'm know to be the careful one and responsible one of my family. I haven't told anyone yet but my sister. She's being very suportive but she's still a little nervous and that if she can catch it from me by just touching something I touched. I'm scared and hope that the way I feel right now will lesen with time. All I want right now is someone to be suportive and someone to talk to. All I do now is pray for strenght and that I can still find that special someone and have a family. I you guys ever want to talk i'm here.

[ange843]

`well ladies... since i have posted this i have made huge steps. i have decided to be pretty open with this for two reasons. the first one being that any real friends and family i have will not judge me. second is so that i can educate as many people as i can about it. im not saying that everyone who has hsv should be this way. it is just the way i have chosen to deal with it. i have realized that my life has not changed all that much, other than my diet and taking meds everyday. i opted to be on acycloviar because i am still se---lly active with someone. he knows what i have and is ok with it. i still have to remind him of the precautions we have to take but the meds help decrease the chance of him getting it, but it does not eliminate it. i actually have an anxiety disorder... so this was a double whammy for me. i have more control over my anxiety now than i ever have! people have been noticing... and i have also noticed that you can try to educate as many people as you want but people will only believe what they want to... so i do not stress when people still view me as dirty or a ---- or any other crap they come up with. i know who i am. having hsv has not changed that. jenny my sister was the first person i told too. i was more afraid of giving it to her and her kids than she was. i gave them a can of lysol for the bathroom lol... we used it until we were all comfortable. have her do some research with you. you two can figure it out together. prayer has done a great deal for me. i ask him everyday to take the stress off of me, and not just from my hsv, from everything. we will all be ok. all you can do is your best. live stong live long.